Plumbline (Day #2)

Some Mission Adventure people just told Frances to close the door, and it made me a little bit mad. They're ridiculous. The guy and the girl flirting in front of me are ridiculous too.


Ok besides that, I'm totally not bitter.

Today is/was day number two of the week of plumbline... so far, so good. God's here. Last night while praying I felt Him so heavily it was insane. This morning while praying during worship I felt it again. I feel like I just stepped into a new area of life, just through that prayer.

I think plumbline is different for me than it is for the rest of them. I walked through healing of soooo much pain last year, and I am so free from it now. I realize that if I were to go through this week about a year ago, I would be in complete discomfort right now, but I'm not. Knowing what comes from the end of this week makes me so excited for them all.

This is the process in my words.

First the man talks, and God begins to stir up everything inside of you, slowly the stitches on your non-healed wound begin to open. Then for some reason, at some point, with one swift pull all of the stitches will be yanked out of your body, and this massive infected wound will be left gaping open. You'll feel like you're in soooo much pain, you'll feel naked, and vulnerable, shamed and confused.... you'll feel weak, and you'll be angry. This goes on for as long as you're willing to let it... and then at some point, hopefully you let it free, and give it up to God. It's not a fun process as all your pain and sorrow oozes up and out of your body, but it may be the best process. God becomes your doctor, and He cleans out your wound. He doesn't need stitches, because when He's done the wound no longer exists anymore, you are free. Never the less a part of you is gone, but it's a part of you that you were never meant to have. Dealing with it is weird at first, but it doesn't take away from the incredible sense of freedom you will feel afterwards. This is when you begin to discover who you are. This is when you begin to understand yourself, and in return you begin to understand other people.... This is life... This is GOD.

I say it because I experienced it. I don't think that in this week I will walk through much pain at all, but that just proves that what God did in me was so incredibley real. This week I will be walking through my undealt with shame. What will that be like? Can I get anymore free? Obviously I can.... which is another amazing thing in itself. How ridiculous is it to be excited to be able to walk through shame? Very... but I am.

Oh what amazing things God can reveal to you, if only you will let him.